Sometimes, I think I do not deserve God blessing. However, it is obvious God still loves me and protecting from danger even when I am in completely with devil. How many times? I started losing on counting since it has been many times. It will be definitely more than I remember. I was in horrible situation yesterday because I did stupid mistake out of curiosity. I could have lost everything at that moment and I was very vulnerable and completely in lost of control over things. I got humiliation and embarrassment that I deserve but God finally took me out to safe place.
I think God has been giving me warnings several times, once on the bridge, once near the hospital, once inside the hospital, once in the hotel, now near the market. I think I really need to change. God please help me.